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Honestly, Me. part 2
I am very shy and it's hard for me talk or do anything in general around large crowds of people and that has always bothered me. So, i am hoping that when i finally move away to California with my 2 best friends that all of that will change.
We will be moving sometime after June 2017 hopefully. to a 3 bedroom 2 bathroom home. we are waiting 3 years so my friend tater can graduate. We will all have jobs and will also be making YouTube videos on the side. I want to start a new and exciting life without all the stress and drama i have to worry about here.
Honestly, Me. Part 1
Around the age of 4-5 I realized that i was attracted to girls and I immediately felt the need to hide it, lie to myself and others around me and I know everyone is thinking oh my god your lying because little kids don't know anything about that and right off the bat i am going to say that you are only half right.. i say that because i didn't know what gay or bi was but no i am not lying about knowing that something was off it wasn't quite right. So around the age of 7 or 8 i had a crush on this girl down the street and she was older and kissed me than reported it to that school that I made her kiss me and things and so the questions began so
Haven't you lost enough yet?
Haven't you lost enough yet? your teeth are fake, your nails are stained yet you suffer another day. your walls are yellow, you smell like smoke. the life you live is a horrible joke. your addiction is a demon that won't set you free, your skin is wrinkled and riddled with disease. you cough and you gag and you say my bad and go on to speak of the horrible day you had. was that cigarette worth your beautiful face? or the voice you used on sunday to sing amazing grace? Your addicted to the nicotine wanting it to last but haven't you lost enought yet? you've lost a kidney and a lung, but to you smoking still somehow seems fun. was it worth the
saddest song
Just shrug it off, go to sleep. Never let them see you weep. You may hurt from the pain but let your sin run down the drown. Hate me now, back away. Say you will rue this day. I don't care i fear no thing, this is the saddest song i sing.
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